Could it be the double dose of Prozac?
Or is it my invincable spirit,
Or the angel friends and family,
Or maybe my visions of Moab's azure sky,
Or just the Red Bull I am guzzeling?
Good Vibrations by the Beach Boys playing in my head
And my mind was just defragmented like a computer.
Renewed. Uplifted. Hopeful. Happy. Peaceful.
In AA, they say "let go, and let God"
Wow, it sounds so easy
I could never do it, you know me!
But how did it just happen
Without my effort or permission?
Must be another tender mercy from heaven
Another sneaky miracle
Joining the motley crew in my head
On this insane roller coaster.
I breathe, I smile,
I thank my Buddhist friends for their teachings.
Echos of wise counsel
Dance through the maze of my mind
"Stay in your body,
Stay in the moment,
Avoid the poisons of fear and anger"
I sit in the dark of the hospital room
Giving away the outcome
With the distinct feel of warm sunshine in my soul.
Thank you Universe
My burden is lightened.
From our house at sunset
Mountain of God - from vZ's mountain house
I am continuing to pray for Max and the VZ family in the wake of the very bad thing that happended to such good people. I am encouraged by Max's steady improvement; recognize he still has quite a journey ahead of him, but wholly believe Max has the right stuff: he'll go the distance - ditto his family.
ReplyDeleteFirst things first, family is what matters. Baby steps, baby steps, mindful of what we can change or fix, what we cannot - and as the saying goes...grant us the serenity to know the difference.
Be well, be at peace, take care of yourselves, and each other. Blessings abound even in this instance. Seek them, not revenge. There is a price to pay for the terrible problem that assailed your family, but the problem also came with a gift in its hands. Perhaps that gift is already revealing itself, but if not, keep the faith, it will unfold.
Much love and admiration to your family in the aftermath of this crisis. XXXOOO Nancy
Hey can I share with a few (2) close friends, it's beautiful?
ReplyDeleteYou are a beautiful writer! I'm a friend of your niece, Angie. I keep up with her through her blog and therefore have been keeping up with the happenings of your son, Max! My heart hurts for you and your family, but I sense the miraculous power of FAITH and HOPE! I am amazed by what I have read and how the Lord works in mysterious ways!! WOW...the whole Israel trip/Doctor thing is mind-boggling to me, yet such a tender mercy!
ReplyDeletePlease know that you, your husband and MAX are in my thought and prayers!!
You don't know me but my parents went on the trip with you last month (Steve and Pam Zweifel) My mom let me know about your blog and I want to say how sorry I am to hear about Max. My parents talk so highly of all of you and keeps us updated on how Max is doing. Our thoughts are with you and we pray that you all will be blessed with peace and comfort during this difficult time. Thank you for sharing your blog and I hope Max will improve in health each day.
ReplyDeleteJaime (Zweifel) Mickelsen
It has been awhile since I have seen you and your family. I enjoy seeing Angie, Cassie, Joni & Wanda's blogs and keeping in touch that way. I am so sorry to hear about Max. It is so sad to know that there are people in this world that would do such an awful thing like that. It makes me sick and it breaks my heart. Max has turned out so handsome. I remember him from when he was much younger. You are so lucky to have such a great extended family to be there with & for you. I love all of your family very much. Please know that Max will be in our thoughts and prayers and we hope for a fast recovery. Jeni (Oldham) Eskelson
ReplyDeleteJeanne, I hope you don't mind that I have crossed over the border into your personal life from the more distance professional acquaintance side of our relationship. I was searching trying to find out where I could send flowers for your son when I came across your (this) blog site. Jeanne, I am in awe of your strength, eloquence and ability to shed 'beautiful' light on an otherwise unimaginable situation. Since your email a few days ago, the compassion I feel for your son (and your family) has not subsided. I wish you all the very best on this journey; my heart will continue to be with you. And your story of your husband's new freedom of emotions is equally beautiful and inspiring. I have never wanted to hug people I don't know more than I do now. I'm so pleased to have met you last summer and again in Moab last month. A stranger in Minnesota sends her love to Max (and all). Mitch Hedlund, UoG
ReplyDeleteHi Primrose Princess (that is a great title!),
ReplyDeleteWow. I just read through all your blog postings and hadn't realized about the overlaps with the doctor you met in Israel. Amazing! And, we humans think we have it all figured out. Hah. No way.
It warmed my soul to read that 'warm sunshine is making its way into your soul.' Thanks for sharing your thoughts in such a beautiful way.
Love,
Kai